Longing for a sanctuary

My eager heart wants to love -- to love what you love.
To be as loving as you are.
To care as much as you care...
It's difficult... I have too much of me... teach me to have more you.
because, it is so difficult to love.. those who are different from me, who think differently, who act and behave beyond my understanding, who debate every single statement I utter about my Love.
Sometimes I feel the closer I am to You.. the farther apart me with the others...

But, I can't help it not to be close to you!
This new found desire is too powerful for me...
All I can think is You, all I can see is You, all I can talk about is You...
This feels like madness.
This is oddness.
This feels so right but also so hurtful.
The ache of longing for You is so great that I wish the world will speed up to the end of time so I can be with you.

a peach farmer notes

"Perhaps there's no secret to farming and managing chaos -- you blend tradition and science with some common sense ans trust that you'll have a crop"

"Good farmers are tending to their trees & vines as a best as they can, comfortable with their work and confident that the final product will be fine."

"The farm is a test of unconventional, a continues experiment, a journey of adaptation & living with change."

"Less on controlling nature -- learning to live with its chaos."

Epitaph for A Peach - David Mas Masumoto.

Treats from above

Sitting here on the 41st floor with my dear friend B,
looking outside at the city of Chicago
is a privileged.

Anything that happened beyond Singapore are totally exceed my dreams.

Never in my entire life, I would imagine that I will be in this exact spot. I have been strained and lifted above the average, enjoying these treats.

Differences are good!

People can be different. Differences are good. I can be different from others. Others can be different than me.

Riding into the rain.
The blessing for the day.

Realizing and allowing differences in my life to be revealed and honored.
I am learning and transformed to be a person of great love.

For my roommates

Love & Mercy

A jar of love to be filled
A jar of mercy to be poured
May the two -- now one
be bonded
with love & mercy forever.

Bon Voyage M&I

Surviving the lows..

Roman 8:35,37

Remember today my soul!

You know that you're out of the hole. You know it because you look around and you see hope.

You listed out all the Yes-es and No-es and you are reminded:
why you are here,
what started you in the beginning,
who is person that made you stay.

W

Ecclesiastes 3

There is an appointed time for everything, and a time for every affair under the heavens.
A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to uproot the plant.
A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to tear down, and a time to build.
A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance.
A time to scatter stones, and a time to gather them; a time to embrace, and a time to be far from embraces.
A time to seek, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away
A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to be silent, and a time to speak.
A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace.
What advantage has the worker from his toil?
I have considered the task which God has appointed for men to be busied about.
He has made everything appropriate to its time, and has put the timeless into their hearts, without men's ever discovering, from beginning to end, the work which God has done.
I recognized that there is nothing better than to be glad and to do well during life.
For every man, moreover, to eat and drink and enjoy the fruit of all his labor is a gift of God.
I recognized that whatever God does will endure forever; there is no adding to it, or taking from it. Thus has God done that he may be revered.
What now is has already been; what is to be, already is; and God restores what would otherwise be displaced.
And still under the sun in the judgment place I saw wickedness, and in the seat of justice, iniquity.
And I said to myself, both the just and the wicked God will judge, since there is a time for every affair and on every work a judgment.
I said to myself: As for the children of men, it is God's way of testing them and of showing that they are in themselves like beasts.
For the lot of man and of beast is one lot; the one dies as well as the other. Both have the same life-breath, and man has no advantage over the beast; but all is vanity.
Both go to the same place; both were made from the dust, and to the dust they both return.
Who knows if the life-breath of the children of men goes upward and the life-breath of beasts goes earthward?
And I saw that there is nothing better for a man than to rejoice in his work; for this is his lot. Who will let him see what is to come after him?