Greetings of Peace

It is good to hear from you. I have no doubt at all about your gifts and talents. The Lord is also revealing to you how much you have within you to touch people's lives. I am sure your gentle and kind ways, your openess to life and humility will endear yourself to those you minister. Trust that you are a beautiful person who has suffered much and like the wounded healer, now ministering to others...bringing them back to life - just as Jesus did for the widow of Nain.

You will have many doubts about your call along the way...But you yourself discover that God brings you back over and over again. In the end it is your personal encounter with God that becomes your mainstay and strength.

Doubt is a nasty thing

See...
There's a discrepancy between reality and what I would like to believe...

Doubt is nasty thing... I'm being taught about it. It's amazing how easily fall into doubts after all the things that I witness up to today....after all the miracles.. makes me wonder how much more does God has to proof his love for me.
I doubted my ability to complete the assignments, yet I did by His grace and did well.
I doubted that I will be able to support my self, yet I am supporting myself..
I doubted that I can do any good for my young clients, yet I do provided them comfort...even it was just for 20 mins in a week.
the big one was last week... I was beginning to wonder if all that 'calling' was real... I seemed to be so isolated from everyone that all that happened in Singapore seemed so far away and unreal. Plus, I haven't talk to Sr A or Sr V.. because both were busy with death in the family.
Yet, yesterday at mass.. I was reminded through Zacchaeus...in a simple mass... about my encounter with God's love and mercy. After I received Jesus' body and blood... I was just sitting there... overwhelmed with gratitude.... it was so overpowering that for a split second... I want nothing else but just be with God.

So God's calling is real isn't it?
Then... why He made me wait? I don't get this part... why does God amplify my desire if I'll have to wait...
But I guess, no on knows too...